what the fuck is wrong with me?

i have all the reasons to actually be happy but i’m not.
- its snowing.
- no more mocks to stress over.
- holidays are here.

but somethings feels wrong. i think it could be the fact that last time it snowed everything was so different. i was truely happy.  and i miss times like that and i have no idea what happened other than the fact things have changed.. if that makes any sense? another reason could be because i know all my friends have moved on and i’m just still there.

oh great. now i’ve just watched a really sad part on christmas filmflex crap. now i am sat here in tears, despite my best efforts to hold it all back. thanks, tv, thanks alot.

i don’t think anybody understands how much ‘i don’t wanna miss a thing’ actually means to me. it holds so many emotional memories for me. its seriously all i’ve been listening to on my ipod for weeks now. i think is the most amazingly beautiful song ever.

i find boys who smoke far more attractive that i probably should. theres just something about it that makes me like ‘phwwaar kkhnkdfv’ (but not the chavs - just the indie’s)

i don’t like her new hair. her face is too long for that particular style. and she’s a bitch.